I ask this question over and over in my brain throughout the day; it’s getting ridicules.
Should I tell anybody, everybody, nobody that I have a mental illness namely depression? I really know the answer, and that is “keep my big trap shut!”
I’m off work on sick leave now awaiting a form filled out from my doctor. Family doctor that is, as I know they will positively request the psychiatrist evaluation for my claim.
The last few months have been more than a struggle; not just with my actual work, but that of keeping my “secret”, even from my close lunch buddy. Her and I were a couple of chit-chatters at times, but zilch was ever revealed. I just couldn’t chance any loose lips.
In a way, I wished my manager had come to me and questioned why such low productivity. I know they have to be careful of intrusion (protecting their butts), but at the same time at least showing some concern. I wouldn’t have revealed – but it would have been nice to be asked.
It’s still really early in the game, the meds are not effective. Wellbutrin is making me feel worse and pdoc doesn’t return for a couple of weeks. If I do return to work……..(don’t want to think about it).